Saturday, May 26, 2007

cold feet, warm heart

I am starting to feel wistful and nostalgic, just sad to go I suppose. And a bit scared. Suddenly I see all these reasons to stay in Chicago. I have a great job with fun and interesting co-workers. The writing studio is offering some new cool classes and even a certificate program this session. And I love my guitar - how could I possibly sell it now that I am having such a good time learning songs on it?

The week before graduation from college, I felt the same way. Anything could bring on sentimental feelings - passing a good friend on the path up to campus, sorting through my used textbooks and deciding which ones to keep, picking an outfit for my last "school dance". I spent the entire week wishing I could just push off the "real world" for one more semester.

So today I have been giving myself little pep-talks - much like the commencement speech at graduation. There are so many experiences I have had here that warm my heart, that will stay with me as memories - both in mind and material (those sweet mix CDs, an awesome hand-made scarf, a beautiful new journal...)

I'll let that be all for now, because I could get so much more cheesy if I don't stop myself. Just wanted to make it known how much I am going to miss Chicago and my fun life at the music school, the girls from the pub, and my unforgettable foray into "the world of consulting". It has all been... perfect.

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